It got harder, but I think it just got better.

• Author: Wunder
• Filed under: Life
• Date: Apr 16,2008

I talked with Danielle today, and it made me feel a lot better. I know I’m being overly sensitive about a lot of things, maybe more than a guy should be, and I’ll fix that, but I guess i’m just being fearful of losing the most important person in the world to me. That’s gotta be what it is. Fortunately though, I have a great feeling that her and I will fix whatever comes our way, because that’s what a relationship is, right? Two people that love each other that are willing to be adults and address and fix the issues that come up.

I was pretty miserable there for a couple days just even fathoming the thought of losing her. I guess you really learn how much someone means to you after going outside of a routine. We definitely got out of our normal routine of talking every day, and I think that’s what startled me so much. Especially with how things went on Sunday, it just didn’t feel any better not talking to her after all that.

I’m happy to say that her and I have talked, though, and we have both said that we want to work on this and move past it, and be happy together like we were. That’s really all I want. I honestly believe that her and I, given the chance, could still redefine what love truly is in the world. I know I already have for myself. I mean, she’s my everything. Ya ya ya I say that a lot, but it just becomes more and more true every single day. I think of the little things that really mean so much to me. When I notice that smile when I kiss her nose, or how softly her eyes are closed after we kiss. I notice her soft sighs when I stroke her hair, and those times when she holds me tighter or cuddles up in her spot on my chest. Those are the times that I live for with her. I can be enveloped in those times forever and I would be truly happy.

This is a sappy post, I know, but I had to get it out. I’m still on my eternal quest to ultimately try and explain how much she means to me. I’m sure I’ll complete that quest one day. In the meantime I get to have the fun of trying.

It’s 5:30 in the morning and I want to go home. I think I have my car appointment today to get it’s service and everything, but they never called me back to confirm, so I don’t know. It’s either today or tomorrow. Either way, it desperately needs to get fixed, because just tonight on my way to work the Check Engine light came on, and that’s never a good sign.

In other news, got accepted at the apartments that I wanted. Only problem there is that they want 1 month down as a security deposit. I mean wow, that’s a $700 security deposit! Oh well, it’s completely refundable of course, so I’ll have to ask them about that move-in special when I talk to them next. I hope they still honor it. That’s one of the reasons I wanted to move in there.

I’m cutting this post short. I’ll write more later. Maybe today I’ll actually get around to modifying the banner and everything. I need to fill those ad spots too. Don’t know what the hell I’ll be doing with those. Any ideas are very welcome!